so...... how do u expect us to solve problems when u always don wanna continue in the middle of our talk. "i think you have to talk things out with him/her". tats wat ppl always say. but i always cant seem to do it with u.

its not that i wanna ask u to think. its just tat i reached an answer after thinking through about a lot of things. i just want u to realise the same thing. its not our fault that we are like tat now. its the time. the duration we have been together.

why cant we experience tat kind of feeling that u always wanted? cos we know each other too well already. theres v little place where we can chance upon something new about each other. we already know wat each other is like, how we behave, how we think, etc. its v difficult to get tat kind of feeling back. not tat i gave up. but i just find it difficult.

somemore why do u sms me in that kind of tone. its worse than friends. its like total strangers. everytime i sms u i see ur reply like tat i totally sian diao. the way u reply ur friends are even better u know. i know its cos u don feel like smsing me. u don feel like talking to me. but if u feel this way, no matter wat i do it also wont help.

i asked around and talked to my friends about this problem. my listening ears consist of both guys and girls; in fact there were more girls. i told them about ur expectations and my expectations. but the things they say are all the same. tats why i cant help thinking... is ur expectations too high? or am i too lousy for u. why do i feel this way? read on.

i keep thinking.. how to get tat kind of feeling back. wat are we missing now compared to in the past. truthfully, we are not missing anything. its the mindset and thinking of us tat have changed. u gave both of us a chance tat time. so why did it not turn out well? cos we are used to tat kind of result. its been like tat for months. by nature, we will feel the same way. its the same way as st john competition. judges give higher marks to dunman high cos they are used to their good performance. naturally they get high marks even if they perform normally.

try kissing another guy. u will feel the difference immediately. tats why i say its not the fault of ours. its the duration. its from this duration that i think ur expectations are impossible. understand now?

i dunno wat to say. i just hope u understand, even though i know its impossible to get the same thinking as i am.

watever the outcome, just make sure its really wat u wan. and be happy at the end. before tat, pls at least think through wat i say... maybe we shld stop, and look at things in a different way.

i still love u as much as last time, even if u don.