Saturday, January 26, 2008
ME
Yes im me. its difficult to change it. furthermore with this character of mine, i tend to give in, to conform, rather than to rebutt or dissent. With this character of mine, i tend to be more forgiving and im able to forget damn easily. With this character of mine, i tend to be more sensitive, in a way i worry a lot about how people will feel/think. With this character of mine, i tend to forget what i do or say before in the past. Maybe its with this character of mine that it made u think im not mature enough for u, be it inside or outside. But are u mature enough also? i shall not touch on that.You had been saying that im pissing u off these days. Whenever we talk, it also ended up like tat. But why? im only saying how i feel. don i have the right to say tat out? to defend myself to a certain extent? seriously im just only giving in. i don wanna say much cos i know i wont gain anything from it. i always type/key in stuffs, den ended up changing the words cos i think its too harsh. Maybe my character is too soft. But who cares, im cool with it.I cant communicate with u anymore. You think im pissing u off everytime too. But what am i supposed to do if i cant communicate with u anymore? i really do not know. Let's be friends instead. It's for the better of us. I really dare not take this chance that ur giving me. what if next time when we are better, and the same thing happens again. furthermore i will be 'camping' in school soon, and im also going into NS soon. And ur having ur As. With a weak relationship, we wont last through these periods too. This weak character of mine is kicking in again. I seriously hate myself for not having the courage to believe in us.Nevertheless, I really appreciate that i met a person like u. U opened me to many new sights. U taught me many new things. U made me changed for the better at some points. I'm sorry i cant accompany u past your A levels. I'm sorry for turning u from a cheerful girl full of hopes into some1 u are now. I don think u wan me to be there on ur 18th birthday. I think my parents really thought that we will be together til marriage. But it seems like maybe we really don't click that perfectly.Sincerely, thanks for stepping into my life and being part of it. Thanks for all the care and concern u gave to me. Thanks for all the words u said to me. Thanks for all the time u spent with me. Thanks for everything u done/are doing for me, whether i know it or not. Thanks for everything. May we still be good friends who will confide in each other....... Please at least remain as a fren with me.
Will i regret this?
I don't want to do this at all. But i know that ur very tired and very sicked of everything now. i know ur feeling very down at this period of time. but if i don do this, u will end up feeling worst. im feeling very sad now, but maybe i deserve it. for not being a good bf, a good supporter, a good confider. I still love you. But nothing i say will help salvage the r/s cos i just cant do it right....... We shall see in time to come, if fate allows it........
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